So I wait, and in a while...

...I will see my true love smile...

Bluesy Friday yet again. What happened? It used to be my favorite day...

Pink is just a color.

This topic has been sitting on my mind for a long time now. I hear a lot of remarks from people about the music I hear, the things I like, the colors I like, the way I live my life etc.

What seems to be an embraced thought is that 'pink' for example is a girly color. Love songs are for women to hear. Flowers are feminine. What? I even know someone who said that being a vegetarian is gayish. What???

I just think people got a little out of prospective with their all conception of what suits boys and what suits girls. Is it wrong for a girl to like sports? I like a woman that likes sports. I think it shows something about being open to new things. I'm a complex guy. I like love songs, flowers and I'm sensitive and on the other hand I like sports and I drink beer. Where's the contradiction?

I just don’t think there's room for these definitions in the modern world.

btw, 100th post. woo-hoo!

Cool breeze

Uhmm, just to close the corner of last week's post… I had a horrible week and a horrible weekend, and maybe I shouldn't post when I'm this sad, because it didn't even made me feel any better, but oh well…

This week kind of holds the same pattern as last weeks'. It started off really nice, I was worried it will be very unpleasant but it was okay. At first. But it ended kind of poorly. I was in a tour in Jerusalem yesterday, which wasn't so much fun for me, and I got home very tired and in a very late hour. That's okay if you don’t consider the fact that the whole week was kind of tiring and I was already eager to go home.

But the thing that bugged me was that I wasn't even supposed to go on that tour. Someone else was. And ugggh this person, who was at home, I assume, at least every day, made up this personal problem to the person who makes the schedule and just kind of stuck me with the tour. And it so annoying to see a person with so much inconsideration in others and so much lack of interest in others but herself.

Well, the idea that she done that, and actually made up something just for not doing something she didn’t feel like doing, without caring that it might affect someone else is just beyond me. I don’t understand how people do that.

I mean, yes, it's human to think about yourself first, but this is basic consideration, some people are just idiots. I'm not perfect either, but I try at least! I try not to be so self-centered and think about how others will be affect by my actions.

But maybe the problem is in my naivety. In Hebrew there's a saying that you have to grow an elephant skin (to be less sensitive to the environment), I don’t know if I can, but it seems as though you have to, otherwise you just gonna get stamped on like a leaf in the fall.

Oh, my

Hands down, it's been one of the worst weeks I can remember. Funniest saddest thing it started off really good.

I just had a fight with someone who was my best friend, and that's just the tipping of an especially crappy week.

On base everything pretty much was horrible, and next week does not look any better, if worse.

I have no idea what is going to happen next, but it's too much, just too much. :(

There's a kind of hush

I guess I'm just unable to write, again. Or it's just that I'm in a bluesy-sour mood.

This week, the Carpenters.

Let it Roll

Let it roll across the floor

Through the hole and out the door

To the fountain of perpetual mirth

Let it roll for all it's worth

I've had quite a writing blockage lately. To be honest, I was never a 'tell about how my day was' kind of blogger. And also maybe not writing in the blog for so long also contributed to the lack of writing. Truth be told, I want to write but I just don't seem to find the right thing to write about as for now.

Anyway in this case it's always nice to share a song, so what's better than George Harrison' beautiful melodies and words.

Let it roll…

I think I might start to post here more often. Writing a blog can be very therapeutic in a way and I think it could work well for me.

I'll try to summarize the past year in one post, and maybe I'll be able to just roll on from there.

So, the past year was uhm, strange. So many experiences I had. Some good, some less than good but things I can look back on and be amazed that I've been through.

I've dealt with a lot of bureaucracies with the army, which was very hard because it's a tough organization to deal with or fight with when it's not going your way. But I don’t really want to touch that matter. It happened and it passed and now is good. Well, sort of.

In short, when all the 'fight' with the army settled, I got to a medics course. That was a 'special' time to say the least. Looking back on it, you remember mostly the good parts, but it had its difficulties. My course started at the 15^th of March and ended in the 20^th of June. Overall 14 weeks.

I can say that I learned a lot during the course. I've handled it fairly well. A lot better than I did in school. Now I had more interest in what I was studying and I think I had higher motivation to do well. Met some really good people during the course. My commander, for example. He was very caring and sympathetic and helped me greatly even just by caring. We talked at the beginning of the course and he knew I have difficulties with stuff and he was just there. I really miss that guy.

Anyway when I finished the course I was really hoping to be able to serve close to home. To be able to come home every day and just make it to be like some sort of a job. But things didn't work out well there, again bureaucracies and I was put to be a medic in the Intelligence Corps.

I got to my new base in about 1^s of July. I was very nervous. I knew that if by now I couldn't get to be close to home then I will have to be my entire service in a close base. The thought alone was hard because I knew that I might get lonely there, and I did not want that. But I decided to give it a try.

The start was, well, rough. Fortunately I had a friend that came with me from the course and so we hung out together and after that I started to know other people as well.

What I like about the place I'm in right now that you're not there all the time, lol. Every once in a while, mostly at least once a week, you have to escort something. Some trip or navigation or shooting practice or whatever. I even escorted once a vacation trip for bereaved families. And so that way you’re not stuck in the same place for too long and it's harder to get bored. Plus, by going to new places you see cool things and you meet new people which is most of the time nice.

Life in the base is also fairly good. Conditions wise, it's okay, and socially there are nice people to hang out with. I think I've opened more since I'm there. You kind of have to when you're not by yourself most of the time. And so I'm happy it happened. Also I'm home every week, from Thursday to Sunday, and it's working out quite well.

I think that's it for now. Don’t think I've ever had a post this long before, lol. Hope to be back soon with more… :)

Apparently I'm an INFJ…

As the Facebook app, MyType says. INFJ is Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging, that's a personality type, one of another 15 existing types. I would recommend anyone who has a Facebook account to take it; it's really interesting and fairly accurate.

Here is the short description of my type on the app:

Quietly forceful, original, and sensitive. Tend to stick to things until they are done. Extremely intuitive about people, and concerned for their feelings. Well-developed value systems which they strictly adhere to. Well-respected for their perseverance in doing the right thing. Likely to be individualistic, rather than leading or following

Of course there's a much more detailed description of everything in life and relationships aspect, but that's the overall description.

I'd say that's pretty spot on. The detailed description says a lot about being an introverted person. I like the way it's pronounced there: "Most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.

But that's not always on pupose. I don't like bring introverted. Sure everyone likes to have some privacy in their life and keep some things to themselves but I think I find it hard opening up to people in the smallest of ways. I just don't feel comortable in new social situations.

I was escorting a navigation trip in the past week, and during the week I met some great people. One of them was this nicest girl which was one the commanders staff. And we spent some time together during the week, and I hardly ever felt comfort to talk to her. She on her side tried to make conversation and was the one who spoke more for most of the time, but I really wanted to feel at ease around her, and just let things flow. But I didn’t know what to say. It's like I'm interpersonal handicapped or something.

But maybe those things pass, I don’t know. I really wish I could be more outgoing around new people. I am very friendly but I just don’t always know how to let things out. I wish there where people who could look beyond words.

Funniest thing, according to the app I'm most suitable with the extroverted type. I guess I just need someone who complements me. :)

A medic!

Finally, finally, finally. :)